Past, Present & Future

Why is it that  I would much rather reflect on my past then my future?

I always look back on scenarios and situations and think of all the many ways I could have changed the result. I wonder if I did all that I could. Did I do my best or did I just give up?

These questions can be torturous, because they are open ended and will never have an answer.

I would like to say I did all that I could and gave it my all, but the more I ponder this question, the more I am filled with doubt. 

Maybe the answer has been there all along. I did all that I could, I gave it my all, but in the end it was not meant to work out. Because there is other plans in store for me.